What’s it Worth?

Before this pen,

so much as thinks about touching a blank page, again.

I must know: was it worth it?

Was it worth it,

to watch me sit, and write. . .

And write. . .

And write, until my pen runs dry?

Was it worth it,

To see me stare at a piece of pointless paper,

Until the sun sets and the moon shines,

Looking for the perfect word or rhyme?

You know,

It would make such sense;

If it wasn’t.

Writing. . .well,

It can drive one mad.

—And for what?

A pat on the back?

A good review?

Some feedback?

But, then again,

Writing is more than that.

Writing is a portal

From your world to mine:

A world you can visit at any given time.

Time though, will eventually win.

And if all I have,

Are these words from this pen;

Then I’ll always wonder. . .

What could have been?

If I only put down this paper;

If I only put down this pen;

And spent all my time,

With you. . .

Instead.

38 thoughts on “What’s it Worth?

    1. Yes, I agree. For me, as long as I have a handle on what’s most important, than it’s very worth it.

      It’s just a challenge to find time when it’s not your full-time job.

      Lol and I like that term, “all-consuming!” That explains it well.

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    1. I think the key should be trying to reach balance between these moments we need to spend alone reflecting on life. which leads to writing (also reading– love that!–, reading and writing feed each other), and with other moments spent with people in conversation, socialising. At least that is what I try to do. Then there are also poetry and creative writing meetings and open mics where we can share with others and learn from each other. Why do we have so much loneliness and isolation in our current society? Simple, the global capitalist model has killed our time with the too long working hours and the overuse of technologies. Current job requirements and city building plans separate people too much. In countries like the U.S. families live miles away from each other. We, South Europeans, still tend to stick more together with family and friends, which is a preventive medicine to loneliness and isolation.

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      1. Marta, I think my brain size increased after reading this! This is so true, in my opinion, and you explain it so well. I’ve seen what you describe so much. And it’s just plain sad.
        This makes me want to move to South Europe!

        I appreciate the time you took to write this. I think it adds to my post, and it’s exactly what I was hoping to do: generate thoughts on why we write, and if it’s all worth it.

        P.S. I would love to hear more of your thoughts on this. Maybe a post on the topic?

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      2. Yes, I totally agree with you on that, balance is key to everything 😀 Not enjoying spending time with one’s self is also a sign of imbalance, since it mean you do not fully accept yourself for who you are. As I read somewhere recently, loneliness does not mean necessarily that you are lonely, it just means that you enjoy spending time with yourself 🙂

        As for the reason behind it, yes, I also agree that the capitalistic model is definitely a factor. I also believe that due to education and social standards people these stays still do not feel comfortable expressing their true feelings, due to fear of social judgement, But maybe you’re right, maybe behind that hides the fact that emotions are considered a sign of weakness, and due to the fact that we are all dispenseable in this model, another person can come and take our place just as easy, so maybe that is why we have to try our bests to conceal our ‘flaws’…

        Point is, we should try and change this status quo, little by little, step by step.. 🙂

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      3. I’m so glad you mentioned being “lonely” lol. I love being alone, with my wife, or immediate family. But definetly not lonely haha.

        Society can he harsh. I’m with the little by little change! Let’s do it.

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      4. Yes, I am like that as well… I only open up to a very, select few…. Like very select. On the contrary though, I can say I very much enjoy being alone… And loneliness isn’t something I feel too often. But maybe it’s because I haven’t yet found the way to become completely understood. It’s definitely something I’m working on… step by step. 🙂

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    2. Alright, I finally got to watch the video! It was very interesting, and definetly makes you think. But on the other hand, I didn’t feel any of what was said related to me as a writer.

      I can get caught up in it with ease, but like we talked about earlier, I never feel lonely, or a need to be heard. I just think writing is very fun, and in that fun, I developed a passion for it. And I feel like I’m good at it haha. I haven’t been “good” at many things in my lifetime, other than sports and making people laugh.

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      1. I see, it’s interesting to see a different view on it. But you are right, there are definitely plenty of different reasons to become a writer, or to do anything, for that matter. Thank you so much for giving me your honest feedback. 🙂

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    1. Yes! I agree completely with that. I actually had those same words written in this piece, but omitted it last second. It didn’t sound right, and I wanted everyone to have their own thoughts.
      So glad you read and shared this, Margarita! I really appreciate the comment!

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  1. “Writing is a portal
    From your world to mine:
    A world you can visit at any given time.” Beautifully put. I write for a similar reason – to make connections. I desire others who may feel lonely to realize that there is someone who has felt the same. In that way, perhaps a pain is eased in them, thereby easing my pain. Hopefully that all makes sense. 😆

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    1. Thank you so much for reading, RD. And I know exactly what you’re saying lol! My most memorable moment with writing, came when I read one of my stories to my students. Some kids were laughing, some were crying. And I just pauses and thought, “this is so amazing!”
      Connection is something everyone needs, and I want to connect with kids and adults who may not have many.

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